daig ko pa si cinderella

MOVED :)

2008-07-24T09:39:00.003+08:00

my subdomain is up! :) but sad to say i might be leaving blogger. anyway, i'd still try to update this sometimes.

visit my new site! :) && please do sign my shoutbox. SALAMAT :D

http://hannah.maldita.us

subdomain.

2008-07-20T22:32:00.002+08:00

i really wanted my own domain ever since. grabbee! i wanna learn how to do web designs and all. good thing, i found this site :) she hosts! yay! kaya nagaaply ako agad. ayun. ang bilis ng response! she made my account na agad. ang bait nya. yun nga lang, nakakloka pala yung ftp and everything na yun. hndi ko yata mxadong keri yun. sinabay ko pa to ngaung prelims :D haha. okayy. i'm just happy. sana maayos ko na site ko within the next two weeks ;)

good night :D

prelims.

2008-07-20T12:50:00.002+08:00

okay. so next week would be like hell week. it's my first ever preliminary examinations. sana naman ipasa ko lahat. i badly need it! i want to get high grades! of course i really need lotsa lotsa efforts para maachive ko yun. which means, no computer for the next week. i'll try to cut my computer time down. and i'll really review hard. i swear. i need this. no bahala na's and all. it's a must. i want to finish college with flying colors. duh? haha. mmaky.

that's all. ciao for sometime :D

i need a hair makeover. badly!

2008-07-13T11:40:00.002+08:00

omg. i think i need, no, i badly need a hair makeover! i just want to look new, and different. haha!

well, i want demi lovato's hair! bagay kaya sakin? simple straight && full bang bang bangs! haha. i want it! i want it! kaya lang, uhm. ayokong magpastraight ng hair. baka makadamage ee. aww. but yea, we'll see :)

i never thought this would happen.

2008-07-12T21:49:00.006+08:00

mood: DRAMA QUEEN!
looking at: the old einstein memorabilia's && the mv @ youtube.
listening to: the background music of the music video made my tenoi @ youtube.

it's been more than 3 months since we parted ways.
take note ha, 3 months PALANG yun, and i can say that there had been lots of changes with everyone, i guess.

unang una, i didn't recieve even a single response the moment i sent each and everyone (well, not everyone tlga. few chosen ones lang haha. pero madami din sila) a text message. nagunli pa tlga ko para kumustahin sila, kahit alam kong magagalit si marlon. haha. mmkay. well, however, i was able to have a very little text conversation with fem, diana, and of course, mitch. it's good to know that they're doing good naman. yun nga lang, si fe at si calo, break na ata. haha. ayun. pero yung iba, parang di man lang natuwa at nagreact na may globe na ko! (like finally i'm IN na haha). though most of them are like living their own new worlds na, meron pa din iba who still keeps in contact. patuloy pa din sa pagshare ng stories. parang si celina. wow. bilib ako sakanya. ang tyaga nyang mag-group message. it isn't easy noh, i guess. of course, the all-time einstein's fs profile commentators (tama ba? :D) they know who they are, right abby? haha. antonnette? etc. mami tere is also one who really keeps in touch thru her gm's. yun nga lang, i don't load that often sa globe ok, mali, hindi pala tlga ko nagloload. ha!ha! well, ahm. let's see. meron ding ibang nafeel ko tlga ang change. i'd like to put karlo a. on top of my list. idk ha, pero it seems to me that he's being masungit and all. parang he isn't the same karlo. not sure, kase it's just based from his comments and my comments at fs. haha. neri would also be one. she actually texted me at my sun cellphone this morning. akala ko mangugnumusta, hindi naman pala. may itatanong lang. sana nangumusta man lang diba? :( ayun. nalungkot lang ako. feeling ko nga din e, i won't even get a chance to visit our alma matter eh. panu, wala akong makakasama. sa totoo lang, i super miss them all. they are so much different from my new classmates whom i'd be together with for the next 6 years of my life! darn! ang tagal. parang i can't withstand it. their attitude's so much different from the einsteins. kahit minsan were corny and all, they'd always be the best classmates. nakakamiss kasi. i was browsing on our old pictures here, sobrang heart breaking na it seems like the bond that we had, that strong bond - is slowly getting broken. parang isa-isa ng nalalagas. :(

i hope that whatever negative insights i have in mind are just plain hypothesis! hindi pa to conclusion! sana hindi tlga nagbago yung mga einsteins na nakilala ko. i hope we could get to spend time with each other soon. and i also pray that somehow, as we go on with our own separate, we will always remember.. that we'd always be FRIENDS FOREVER.

well, anyway, here's the video i'm talking about. i cried the first time i watched this. haha. ang drama ko tlga noh! :))

who will i be - it's up to me!

2008-07-11T22:05:00.003+08:00

"Who will I be, it's up to me
All the never ending possibilities that I can see
There's nothing that I can't do
Who will I be, yes I believe
I get to make the future what I want to be
If I can make up anyone and know the choice is up to me
Who will I be

If I decide
I'm the girl to change the world
I can do it, anytime
Opportunity right in front of me, and the choices are mine

Why not try everything
Why stop, reach for any dream
I can rock
Cause it's my life, and now's the time"

i watched Disney's Camp Rock this late afternoon with my sisters. it's really a good movie- sorta similar to high school musical, though. well, anyway, this post isn't totally about the movie. it's about those lines above from one song there. it was really sooo meaningful. i felt like this is really suited for me :)

it's so suitable kase for what i feel right now. college life's just starting. great opportunities awaits me simply because this is a fresh start! it really is up to me on how it'll turn out - good man o bad. syempre, sa good tayo. kung nung high school, hannah was one of those ordinary students - the untalented-type of girl, zero lage sa quizes, hindi nagstastandout sa academics, etc etc! e, gusto ko ng grumaduate from being that type of girl. i want to focus more on my studies. lalo na ngaun, i can see that there is a very huge possibility that i can finally let my light shine. yes, i was used to being with "intelligent" people na feeling ko tuloy hanggang dun nalang pala ko, pero narealize ko, hindi pala. if i would strive harder, i can surely reach my goal. modesty aside, i know i have it, i just need to show it! i need to let it out! say goodbye to the lazy old me. magsisipag na ko. kung hindi ngayon, kelan pa? now is definitely the right time! just wait and see. this is going to be mine. you'll see my light shine!

i can rock, cause this is my life and NOW is the time!

fresh new layout :)

2008-07-11T19:13:00.000+08:00

yay! my blog has a new layout. it's much better than the old one, i suppose :) haha!
it's pink and white kase :) the old one's too dark. far from what i really want.
anyways, it's still under construction. gusto kong ayusin para mas ganahan akong magblog lage :)
okkaay. ciao for now. be back later :)

:(

2008-07-10T21:43:00.003+08:00

though you'll never see me crying, deep inside i feel like dying :(

update

2008-06-22T23:48:00.006+08:00

it's been ages since i last had an entry here. there had been few important happenings i would definitely love to share with you. :)

JUNE 8,2008
mom finally bought me a new digital camera! yes! you read it right! i now have a new Black Sony Cybershot T-2. i really like it except for the color. haha. i would definitely have the pink one, but unfortunately, the store where we're going to buy doesn't have the pink color. (e alam mo na, na-sales talk na si mommy. nakakahiya daw naman pag di binili. mmkayy. haha) well, who cares? i have a new digicam! hoorayy! :D

JUNE 9,2008
WE just turned TWO! :) yes! marlon and i had our 2nd HONEY-versary! i really was so happy then. we just celebrated it very simple though we plan of celebrating it AGAIN next month. haha. as for my gift, i wasn't able to finish my crosstich *sobs. aww. but i really am surprised with what he had for me. he drew our picture! :) he also recorded one of our cellphone conversations. tapos he let me hear that nung anniv namen. it was only then when i knew that his phone had that recording feature. i didn't know how would i react. i wanna laugh because of my cellphone voice, i want to cry kase i was super touched na ewan ko ba, i also felt embarrassed. si leyesa kase e, pinagtatawanan ako. huhu. pero, natouch tlga ko. :) i still can't imagine that we're together for two years now. it seems only yesterday when i was there by the window of our classroom, waiting for him to pass by. tpos hahabulin ko na sya ng tingin :D haha. i feel so blessed to have him. he really has changed for the better, and he really proves how much he loves me :) he may have committed mistakes from the past, but i see his effort in changing. date, super crush ko lang sya. super stalker lang nya ko, pero ngaun, i am very confident to say, he's mine, he loves me, and he would never want to loose me. never. :)

JUNE 10, 2008
tuesday. it was the beginning of a new life for me. i totally have no idea what to expect. my class begins at 7, and i was able to get to ceu before our professor came. tpos yun, it was kinda hard at first. yung wala kang kasama. they're all total strangers saken. pero as time passes by, i get to have new friends na. i don't want to elaborate more. haha. saken nalang yun. mahirap magsalita ng tapos e. anyways, my classmates, Pre-Dent 1-A are all very noisy. haha. i believe our teachers would agree on that :D haha. i have a classmate kase who's like a comedian, si yu. actually, he's a vocalist of his own band. wala lang. ayun. it's cool then, kase the class is always lively, hindi tuloy ako inaantok kahit puyat ako :D hhmm. what else? ah! ayun. about the teachers, i find them good naman. most of them are from manila. they originally teach at mendiola, kaya lang due to some factors, dito na sila. ayun. hmm. i'm still in the process of adjusting. college life is really different from my einstein life. i guess, no other class could replace my iv-einstein. iba kase yung bonding. i don't know. i feel like i still am not myself at school. alam mo yun, i'm so silent at school. i seldom talk. haha. well, we never can tell. ayoko pa ding magsalita ng tpos. haha. we'll see. and i hope i'll enjoy my entire college life. and one more thing pala, i think it's a good choice for me to study at ceu malolos, besides them being on the top list when it comes to dentistry, ceu malolos is so so so near to bsu. (haha. mmkay! :) it's just a 5 minute jeepney ride! kaya naman, madalas pinupuntahan ako ni marlon para sabay kaming maglunch at mcdo! :)

JUNE 21, 2008
this is a super special day. ONE IN A LIFETIME. guess what? oo! haha. i had a get together with my best friend, anna who just went back here in the country after 3 long long years! of course, pauline, my other best friend (we're a trio :D haha) was also there, together with our other elementary friends from msm - karlo, kim, clarissa and charles. sayang bullette wasn't able to be there.

i have classes kase every saturday, kaya para makapunta dun, i didn't attend my last subject which is botany (yah. that branch of science which deals with plants. in what way are plants related to dentists? please answer me!) back to what i was saying. of course, i would be very willing not to attend classes. it's for anna. i wouldn't see her again for another long time. and for the first time, i'd have to go to trinoma all by myself. achievement! haha. nagcommute ako all by myself and thank God i was able to get there. haha.

the next thing i could remember is seeing my bestfriend once again after 3 long years :) i was super happy :) by 2 pm i guess, we had our late lunch at chef d angelo's. their carbonara's really delicious-o! after eating, anna wanted to go to redbox - videoke!! but unfortunately, our time isn't enough. so we decided to go to time zone nalang. pau and i wanted to give anna a simple remembrance. we just couldn't think of any. we wanted something personalized kase, but sad to say, wala kaming makitang available na ready-to-get agad. good thing i saw this cool notebook :) naisip ko agad that she'd like it. the way i knew her kase, back during the elementary days, parang she'd love those kind of stuffs.

after that, we had ice cream at 5 cows. i don't really like sweets, pero their flaming alaska's really really cool :) idk about the taste. haha. sabi kasi ni karlo it's like ordinary ice cream lang din. ayun. our bill went up to 1k plus for just ice cream! haha.

sad to say, anna has to leave na. her family still has an appointment. but yeah, we all know we'd see again someday, SOON.

after she left, we had to wait pa for karlo 'coz he went back to his dorm in up to get his things. when he arrived, we went home na. ride's courtesy of clarissa. we felt hungry so we decided to eat at teriyaki boy at petron marilao. 5 nalang kami nun ha, come to think of it, wala pang service charge pero naka 1,800 something kame! haha.

yun. after that, i arrived home na. nagkwento pa muna ko kay mommy at lara bago matulog :) super fun and memorable day tlga.

:)
i guess that'd be all. pictures are all uploaded in my multiply site. drop by in case you wanna see them.

last friday of summer 08

2008-06-06T22:58:00.003+08:00

june 6, 2008.
today's the last friday of my summer 2008.

kung pwede lang sanang i-extend diba, bakit hindi? :)
o well. my day was pretty good naman.

i woke up at around 8 am (that's early :D, believe me.) i ate my breakfast and then my sisters decided to watch it started with a kiss 2. it's a koreanovela. yeah, whatever. it's taiwanese but i'd like to call it koreanovela. ydc.ü i ain't really addicted to those kind of stuff but yea, i like itswak2 just like how i was hooked by meteor garden and full house. we watched 'till 12 noon. ate lunch and went back to being couch potatoes again :)) we stopped watching by 3 pm. lara and i must get ready for we'll be going to bocaue, kuya jon2's place coz it's his 21st birthday! the debutante eh? :D

by 4:30 pm, we were at ate isay's house na. nagcommute lang kami :D oh, we also bought a roll of cake as our present for the birthday boy. since the road going to their house is being reconstructed, we would have to walk till we reach the tricycle terminal. but luckily, alvin used his motorcycle for transport and so as kuya jonjon. ayun! motorcycle ride! :)) super fun. by batch kami sumakay. duh? di kami kasya. haha. first - me @ kuya jon and ate isay @ alvin. second - lara @ kuya jon and ate pite,dada @ alvin. finally! we're there! as usual, kantahan + kainan to the max + non stop kwentuhan + etcetera = FUN FUN FUN!

we really don't want to leave pa, pero gumagabi na. remember, nagcommute lang kami, which means it isn't safe to go home late. so we decided to go. syempre, pagpnta sa skayan, motorcycle ride again. but this time, we didn't go in groups. oo, nagankasan kaming 7! haha. 4 sila alvin tpos 3 kami nila kuya jon. ate isay was with me kay kuya jonjon. e si ate isay, medyo healthy and figure, tpos may dadaanan kaming slope, ayun. di kami makaandar paakyat! haha. embarrassing but who the hell cares? haha. saya tlga :D we arrived home past 10 na :)

okay. let me subtract one "fun" from there. haha. si leyesa kasi. di xa nakasama kasi enrollment nila, and yea, he's mad nanaman. galit na galit nanaman kase daw gabi na. ay susmer, pag xa naman e :(

till here. i need to wake up early pa tomorrow. good night world :D

random.

2008-06-04T00:58:00.005+08:00

i just couldn't sleep. sorry na ha. :)
time check: 1:14 am.

oh well, i still got 6 more nights to train my self to sleep early. yearyt! school's going to start on tuesday. i'm not totally excited, but yea, meeting new people's cool. haha. i hope i could make new friends with my soon to be classmates. and oh, btw, pre-dentistry in ceu here in malolos has only one section. talk about kakornihan. wala man lang ka wala thrill thrill. haha. (reminiscin' my einstein days) yung tipong section this versus section that. mmkkay. hahaha. wish me luck luck luck on my first day as an escolarian :D

actually, there is a much much more special day than that which i have already marked on the calendar since last year. haha. my boyfriend and i would be having our 2nd anniversary on the 9th of june. kaya lang hindi kami sa 9 magcecelebrate. wala kaming budget. haha. i mean, duh? it's vacation and i don't get even a centavo from my mom. hahaha :)) ayun. well, we actually have 2 anniversaries. i don't know why but we just wanted it like that. ydc! :D i feel a lil bit worried cause i still haven't finished my gift. it's just a simple crosstich of our picture. nakakatense naman, baka hindi umabot. hahahah. may isa pa nga akong gift sa kanya, scrapbook naman - which is scheduled to be given to him on the 19th :D aww. sana matapos ko yun.

time check: 1:30 am (so that took me quater an hour already eh? mmkay. haha)

maybe i couldn't sleep because i have this problem. problem that i wouldn't wanna talk about. i do believe that sometimes normal people get to have this feeling - a feeling that no one could understand them no matter how hard they try to explain. basta something like that. wow. normal pala ko haha :)) awww.

good night world! *smoooochhes*

edit: i'm such a bad girl. hindi ako pwedeng maginternet kase pinagbawalan ako ni leyesa. e, tulog na sya e, e ako hindi pa inaantok, wala namang akong magawa. umaandar nanaman kasamaan ko. :(( sori!

the best-est part of my summer

2008-05-31T12:36:00.006+08:00

WHO: Hannah, Marlon, Ate Pite, Alvin, Kuya Jon, Ate Isay, Lara and Dada.
WHAT: night swimming :D
WHEN: may 30 (around 6 pm) -may 31st (around 4:30 am)
WHERE: luntiang paraiso resort

medyo matagal na din kaming nagplaplano, kaya lang hindi natutuloy. but this time, go na go na tlga. :) first time naming magswimming without guardians and first time din namin magswimming na we prepared everything and of course, first time namin ni ney na magnight swimming together. :)

we spent the almost the whole day ng may 30 preparing for our swimming. medyo nagkaroon pa nga ng problems na muntik ng hindi matuloy pero ayun, naging ok din naman. we had contributions for our food. we cooked! :) and dami nga din naming food na baon e. kaya sabi namin, uubusin dapat yun.

finally, almost complete na ang cast. si alvin, yung bf ni ate pite, may dalang sasakyan, so my service kame. mmkayy. haha. and then, yehey! ayun. nasa resort na kame :)) kaya lang wala pa nun si kuya jonjon kase may pasok xa. pero nakasunod naman xa agad :D

super fun. medyo madaming tao, but it's fine. swimming to the max. kain :) at inuman. mmkkay. tumikim ako. pero i don't really drink. marlon's going to kill me. haha. of course, picture taking would always be there. haha. multiple shots galore :) we also played pool games! :) yung water war. haha. so nakasampa ko sa balikat ni ney tpos si ate pite kay alvin, si dada kay kuya jon, si lara kay ate say. ang saya. war tlga. haha. si lara naman, isang fitness instructor. nageexercise kame sa pool haha. funny tlga. muka kaming tanga ;) nagvideoke din pala sila.

of course, nagmoment kami ni ney. haha. nagstar gazing kame though there aren't many stars. haha.

so by 2 am, nagbanlaw na kame. kami nalang naiwan dun sa resort kaya we decided to pack things up na. since medyo may tama dahil uminom sila, kumain muna kami ng lugaw. naghanap pa kami ng lugawan. and yea, we even had a picture sa lugawan. nagpapicture pa kami kay ate sa lugawan. haha.

ayun. on the way home, sa lucida ni alvin, party kame! haha. syempre may music, kantahan at sayawan kame. ok. haha. yung fave ni ate isay na LOW LOW LOW LOW! :)) at me love at soulja boy :)

tpos hinatid na nila kami dito sa house. si marlon sumabay na sakanila para mas malapit. ayun. tpos natulog na ko nung nakauwi na xa. pagod but definitely totally absolutely fun fun fun! :)

here are some of our pics:

while waiting for the boys haha

papunta na dun

we've just arrived! :)

mermaids eh? :D

happy happy :D

we even had multiple shots before going home :)

sa sasakyan papunta sa lugawan :D

sa lugawan. haha mmkay :)

this happening would definitely happen again! :D yehey!

and as usual, i'd be uploading all our pics @ my multiply :)
http://mlhannah.multiply.com

a day with friends

2008-05-29T09:48:00.003+08:00

last tuesday, may 27th, my girls went here. it's been 2 months since i last saw them. sobrang nakakamiss sila. buti nalang nakapunta sila. though we're incomplete, i really had a great time. nagbonding lang kami nila berna, shiela, jenny and nina. we wacthed a cinderella story tpos we ate and then went outside to take some pictures. haha. maghahapon na nun. ayun. we also had this music video. :)) we were dancing-slash-singing sa gitna ng kalsada. haha :)) nakakatuwa na nakakahiya. may nagprapractice kasi ng sayaw sa kapitbahay namin, ayun, nahawa kami. ayun, there were also lotsa lotsa chikas - so i'm somewhat updated na (me being so chismosa again. lol)
we'll have a get together ulit next month. sana matuloy. para hindi mawala yung friendship :)

isa sa mga napakadaming multiple shots :))

i'll upload more pics at my multiply. ciao for now :)

to GOD be the glory!

2008-05-24T08:54:00.003+08:00

i just learned the other day that i passed the OWWA scholarship. It is a scholarship given to relatives of ofw's. sa buong pilipinas xa, tpos 100 lang ang kukuhanin from thousands of hopefuls. (roughly around 4,000) hindi tlga ako makapaniwala. it was like a miracle. (haha. mmkay.)

hindi na talaga ako umasa dito, kase up nga di ako nakapasa. hahaha. pero ayun! yehey! haha. i luckily made it. maybe up wasn't really meant for me 'coz this scholarship is coming.

btw, the said scholarship's going to give me Php 30,000 per semester, meaning Php 60,000 per year. cool huh? :) my parents won't spend big money for my college. ang saya tlga ng mommy ko nung nakapasa ko. super - nakakatuwa :) puro nalang kase disappointments dala ko weh. haha. go and check their site. pang number 9 ako. [yes, it's my super lucky number. haha]
http://owwa.gov.ph

[screen shot. haha. :))]

okay. one more thing. i have finally decided that i'll be going to Centro Escolar University. YES. CEU it is. i am taking up dentistry - that's what i really want. and i am very much happy with this decision. i had second thoughts of still going to UST, taking up computer science but i believe doing something you really want is much more important regardless of whatever your school is. what's the big deal kung CEU ako and your school is among the big 4 universities? the HELL i CARE. haha. ;))

boo :|

2008-05-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

i wanted to change and create a new friendster layout kaya lang my mind isn't functioning. boo. wala akong maisip na idea. kainis. haha. balak ko pa namang baguhin din e2ng layout nito pati na din yung sa multiply ko. kaya lang --- wala akong maisip. haay :|

flores de mayo '08

2008-05-18T18:23:00.011+08:00

last night was the flores de mayo here in our baranggay. abay yung mga pinsan ko, si ate pite and kuya jonjon. ehem. xmpre naman, they're both good looking [it runs in the blood noh! haha] of course, pictorial galore muna. di pwedeng wala yun. :))

[ate pite and kuya jon2 - before leaving]

[multiple shots galore! :)]

and obviously, bagyong cosme was still here yesterday. as in super duper bumabagyo tlga. so i thought it'll be postponed but when i texted ate pite, sabi ba naman "oo daw. tuloy daw. wala daw atrasan." i was like, duh?? bumabagyo. tpos baha sa ibang parts ng san pablo and then itutuloy nila? duh-ness tlga! but yah, we had no choice. we went to the chapel at around 7 pm. the mass was already starting. medyo nakikisama na yung weather by that time kase hindi na umuulan though malakas pa rin yun hangin.

whatever it is that you may have already predicted in your mind, OO! go kung go and drama ng flores de mayo.there was a time where it really rained hard. omg tlga. nasira pa yung umbrella ko. pero for a very short period of time lang naman yun - good thing. sabi nga, the show must go on, so whenever we'll need to pass sa baha [eww] kuya jonjon would carry ate pite. oo, lover's carry. haha. here's a picture:

[suh-weet :) haha. ginaya naman yan nung ibang abay :))]

[nakaumbrella pa tlga noh :)]

and finally, the long walk is over! nakabalik na kame sa bisita para naman sa isang small program wherein they'd choose the face of the night na isasagala ulet sa sta. isabel. para yung all the other baranngays would get to have their own representative. e d ayun. moment of truth na. haha. and guess what? she won! no wonder. haha. so next sunday, lakad galore ulet kame. ang mga dakilang alalay :D late na xang natapos. past 11 na cguro.

[dada,me,lara,alvin,ate pite,kuya jon,ate isay]

right after that, di pa kame umuwi agad ni lara. we ate pa muna at their house. tpos nun, parang ayaw na naming umuwi. inaaya kame nung tito ko na hahatid na daw nia kame, e ayaw pa nga namen, kaya dun nalang daw kame matulog and we could borrow clothes naman from ate pite.

we had super duper fun. they drunk pa. hindi naman kase kame umiinom e. haha. picture-an galore. super duper daming multiple shots. kain ng kain. tapos yung bf ni ate pite, si alvin, was doing some magin tricks sa cards. woooow. amazing tlga! :) si kuya jonjon naman, nainggit, ayun, kunyare marunong magmagic kahet ndi naman. haha. funny tlga. we also played pusoy dos, na nun ko lang natutunan :D sabe nila, wag na daw kameng matulog :D aba. pagdating daw ng mga 5:30 am e magjogging kame at bumili ng pandesal, e si lara, mga 4 palang yata e ko na! haha. sumunod na si kuya jonjon. kame matibay pa din :D pero wala, bumigay din. mga 5 something, natulog din! :)) and then we woke up mga 8-9 am na. haha. super fun filled tlga.ü

[pagod na kame :|]

[while playing pusoy dos :)]

i'll be uploading all of the pictures at my multiply site. --> http://mlhannah.multiply.com

:((

2008-05-13T22:16:00.002+08:00

nakakainis. bakit ba kasi ang gulo ng utak ko. ngaun ako din tong hirap na hirap. oo, naiinggit ako sa ibang kagaya kong magcocollege palang din. kase sila, excited na. prepared na. e ako, 3rd week na ng may, di ko pa din alam kahihinantnan ng buhay ko. nakakpangsisi tuloy. nasasabi ko nalang sa sarili ko, "sana kase ginalingan ko. sana pinagbutihan ko. sana sinigurado ko lahat ng ginagawa ko." pero what. it's useless na din. tapos na e. ayun na. haaay. ngaun nalilito na ko sa totoo kong gustong gawin sa buhay. kung ikaw siguro nasa kalagayan ko, mas maiintindihan mo ko. haay. and hirap ng ganito. pakiramdam ko, wala ng kwenta kinabukasan ko o kung may kinabukasan pa ba ko? :((

i-giling giling :)

2008-05-10T21:43:00.002+08:00

okei :) ayus na kame. hahahaha. masaya na ko ulet :D the previous post was just on of those me-going-so-dramatic moments. sorry naman.ü

these past few days, since it's vacation, and we've got nothing to do kundi manuod ng tv, na-hook kame sa wowee :D haha. korni? -- i know. haha. e diba, meron dung song na pinapasayaw para makuha ka sa bigatin. yung, I-GILING GILING. haha. e marlon went here kanina. [we weren't able to see each other yesterday & celebrate khit na it's our 23rd month, ya know, world war for the nth time around. :D] yun. bumawi xa. hehe. kanina, nag gagalit galitan ako, basta (one of my kalandian moments naman yun hehe) e di parang sinusuyo nya ko kahet para lang kaming naguutuan :D and then, bigla ba naman xang nagproduction number. yearryyt! :)) he was singing and dancing giling giling :D funny tlga. and he was so cute. haha. katuwa :D if only you could see him. he's like a very adorable, oh so charming, lovable 4 year old little boy. kahit minsan naman nagmukha xang ganun. hahahahah :) ayun. he really knows how to make bawi na to me. [ang baduy kong magsalita. eww. sori na.] he really makes me smile kahit na.. bsta. haha.

igiling giling :D haha. hanggang sa cellphone ba naman, yun pa din :D

"he gives me thousands of reasons to CRY..
and a TRILLION reasons to SMILE :)"

bakit ganun.

2008-05-08T23:07:00.004+08:00

they say life's like a wheel. there are times you're on top - you're happy and there'll be times that no matter how hard you try not to be, you'd feel blue. bakit ganun? kailangan ba tlga may kapalit? i mean, hindi ba pwedeng kapag nasa taas na ko ng wheel e ihinto ko nalang para i won't go down? kapag malungkot ka daw ngaun, wag magalala, kase sooner or later, magiging masaya ka din. e panu naman pag masaya ka na, kailangan ba tlgang darating yung panahon na magiging malungkot ka naman? haaay. answer me! :((

see? kanina, ang saya ko, bakit ngaun, ganito. damn. ayokong magregret. :|

^________^

2008-05-08T13:36:00.003+08:00

as of the moment, my smile is as big as this:
^_____________________^

nothing much. i was just super happy when nina texted me. as in supper saya ko. :D i haven't heard from them kase for quite sometime na din eversince graduation and i just miss them soooo much. naka-sun kase ako and they're all globe users. ayun. buti nalang she texted, di ko man lang kase xa nabati nung birthday nia. [better late then never! haha. 5 days late?]
and they're planning for a simple get together by the end of may daw. gee, i can't wait :D

this is how we kill boredom! :)

2008-05-07T11:47:00.005+08:00

as usual, yesterday was one of those boring summer day. so since my sister lara and i were here home alone, we had a very nice "trip". hahaha. usong uso na ngayon sa youtube ang gumawa ng sariling cover ng kung anu-anung songs, right? and yea, that's what we did. pero we won't upload it on youtube. (ayoko ng kahihiyan) haha. i might just upload it on my multiply. visit it nalang if you wanna see :D we did marie digby's stupid for you. i play the piano and she sings. (i'm not good in singing kase e. haha.)

here are some of our photos yesterday:
location: sa terrace namin:Dbut that's not all. we really were making noise and a neighbor saw us. nagsp-spy pa xa. haha. he was hiding. e with the help of the zoom of our videocam, ayun, nakikita namen xa hahaha :D

and that's how we kill boooredom! :))

college.

2008-05-01T22:43:00.002+08:00

in just a month, i'll be a college student na. but where am i going to spend the upcoming years of my buhay-estudyante nga ba? haay. since chances for my reconsideration at UP manila seems to be somewhat too small, great possibility is that i'd be going to UST na. my course would be computer science. kaya lang, whenever someone asks me about what my course at ust is, and i would answer that, they'd be saying.. "comscie? e anu ba yun. lahat ng tao marunong nang magcomputer noh. at ano namang magiging profession mo dun?".. napaisip tuloy ako... i myself do not even know what are the possible job opportunities for comscie graduates. idk, pero i like the course e. feeling ko, i will enjoy it - cause it's something i love doing - and maybe things wouldn't be too hard for me, right? sa totoo lang, (secret lang naten ha. haha.) if i were just blessed with artistic talents and all, i would definitely have advertising as my course. but the problem is, it's under fine arts. e, hello? may talent test yun, and i do not know how to draw. haha. forget about it. date kase, i never really saw myself as a up student. haha. kumbaga, it wasn't really my super dream school - ust was :D i don't know why so don't ask me. hehe. oh well, i am still hoping that i'd be accepted at upm. kase my mom promised me a digicam if i would be accepted. [sabe pa nga nya laptop e, sabe ko digicam nalang. haha. mas kailangan ko yun. nasira na kase si dateng digicam :((] iyon lang dahilan ko. haha. - just kidding. haha. at upm kase, they are offering dentistry, e that was my dream profession ever since. diba perfect combination? e since luck wasn't with me, i didn't pass the upcat, so that leaves me with no choice but to forget about dent. i don't like ue and ceu kase. idk. basta. haha. pero nalaman ko nalang na my upg is within the required upg for recon sa upm. (paulit ulit naman ako,haha) e naisip ko lang, kase, i didn't pass na nga and i have accepted that. feeling ko, sign yung recon sa upm. ewan. e diba, kung hindi, e d hindi na tlga. e kaso, ayun. biglang UP could open its doors for me pla. wala lang. i still do not know where i'd study. i know God would give me what i deserve diba? and kung saan man yun, i would just do my very best to succeed. sabi nga, wala sa school yan, nasa tao.

sige, goodnight :)

goodbye upm? :(

2008-04-28T12:00:00.003+08:00

i guess i must say goodbye to my hopes of being accepted at UP manila. for what? chances are so looowww. haay. my mom called me minutes ago. sabi nya "ate, tumawag akong UP, ang sabe after may 15 nalang daw ako tumawag ulet kase madame daw nagpa-academic placement." aray naman yun. haaay. my enrollment at ust is scheduled on may 16th. i still don't know what would be happening next. siguro, up really isn't meant for me. ust nga cguro ko. well maybe, HE has a reason for this. maybe he knows where i could really shine. haha. BUT who knows, maybe i would still be accepted. haay. sana nga! God please help me :|

the truth

2008-04-27T16:51:00.002+08:00

i am always afraid to accept that f*cking truth. i thought i was just being optimistic but it's too much --i am being stupid. darn. haay. i'm tired of pretending and showing everyone that everything is going on smoothly when it is not. haay. whatever. i'm tired!!!

nervously nervous.

2008-04-23T23:28:00.006+08:00

it's april 23rd. yes. and just a few more days, it'll be may. and so? what is it with may?

ok.

by the first week of may, i would know if the University of the Philippines - Manila accepted my appeal for reconsideration and whether or not they would be welcoming me to be one of those iska's. I really am hoping that i'd be accepted. :(

you will always be the one

2008-04-22T23:34:00.005+08:00

i was soundtrippin' a few hours ago when the lyrics of this song totally captured my mind. if my boyfriend and i would have another theme song, this would be the perfect choice. na LSS ako dito :) (last song syndrome haha) that is why i was singing it over and over and over hahaha. i could really feel the lyrics

now playing:
YOU'RE STILL THE ONE
Shania Twain

(when I first saw you, I saw love. and the
First time you touched me, I felt love. and
After all this time, youre still the one I love.)

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We might took the long way
We knew wed get there someday

They said, i bet they'll never make it
But just look at us holding on
Were still together still going strong

(youre still the one)
Youre still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
Youre still the one I want for life
(youre still the one)
Youre still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
Youre still the one I kiss good night

Aint nothin better
We beat the odds together
Im glad we didnt listen
Look at what we would be missin

the lyrics says EVERYTHING i wanna tell the WHOLE WORLD :)

there might be obstacles that would come our way, but these won't stop us. you just can't stop us.

summer

2008-04-21T16:57:00.001+08:00

summer.

i wanna make my summer worthwhile. there are lots of things i wanted to do and accomplish before it ends :) let me share some with you..ü

1. learn flash
2. have a better summer job (*fyi: i have a summer job haha wherein i would be like a tutor to my little sister and to my cousin and i just don't know if i would really get paid haha)
3. learn how to draw ~aww :|
4. more more more photoshop-ing hehe
5. a new layout for my friendster and multiply
6. start up a blog (which i have obviously accomplished already! yay! clap*)
7. go swimming with friends and family :D more more more more swimming yay!
8. make a scrapbook
9. MAKE something for our ♥ anniversary haha
10. watch more awesome movies
11. learn how to cook more recipes (as if its true haha)
12. resign from being lazy
13. give our room a make-over
14. give my hair a make-over as well
15. get ready for college :|
16. wish real hard to be accepted at UPm
17. have money to buy a digicam or a dslr hahaha
18. i want to paint our house pink haha
19. i can't think of any other :))

xoxo,
han♥

hello blog :)

2008-04-21T16:19:00.000+08:00

i just wanted another place where i could let go of my thoughts. haha.
oh well, it's just that i am sick of friendster and multiply.
i just couldn't express whatever i really want simply because it's too much exposed to public.
hahahaha. and i'm afraid i might be mentioning stuffs which shouldn't be :D

through these, i could write whatever i want without even thinking who might view this.

that would be all for now. i would work on my layout some other time :)

xoxo han :)